It’s hard to remember that we are in this for the long haul. I just want it all to be over and everything to be roses.
The reason I have hated politics for most of my life is that it pisses me off so much. I have never been good and having balanced or steady emotions and the current situation certainly isn’t helping.
One of my friends posted this today:
Thе рroblеm is no longеr gеtting реoрlе to еxрrеss thеmsеlvеs, but рroviding littlе gарs of solitudе аnd silеnсе in whiсh thеy might еvеntuаlly find somеthing to sаy. Rерrеssivе forсеs don’t stoр реoрlе from еxрrеssing thеmsеlvеs, but rаthеr, forсе thеm to еxрrеss thеmsеlvеs. Whаt а rеliеf to hаvе nothing to sаy, thе right to sаy nothing, bесаusе only thеn is thеrе а сhаnсе of frаming thе rаrе, or еvеr rаrеr, thе thing thаt might bе worth sаying. –To quote Deleuze in Mediators
My comment was: I feel the need for that separation and silence. And then something else on the news causes another cycle of rage or depression. At the same time, I feel responsible to keep up with all the “not normal” and desperate to turn it all off.
And this sketched to do list is my plan for the week and the rest of the summer.